This moment in my life is filled with such deep emotion about so many things... and yet I find that when I come here to share some of it... to get some of it out of my head... out of my heart and onto a blank page... it simply doesn't come.
I sit... I start to type... and words come out... but they fall short every time. Each time I compile a few sentences and then I must start over because the words just aren't enough to truly convey what is going on inside of me.
What's worse is that I feel it a betrayal to share anything at all if it cannot truly express the feelings... or perhaps it's not that at all.... Perhaps it is merely a fear that if I get it all out... that I will be forced to let it go... as if the very act of expression itself would force me to separate myself from the feelings... and in some ways, that is more than I can handle for now.
and so here I am... another night passed... another blank page...
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